The Diary Of Jane

It’s Jane;

My, oh my, this love I know.
None can compare.
His love is confirmed inside of me.
A light that shine in a dark place, until the day sets low
and the morning star rises in this heart of mine.
This love of ours, is inseperable.
He has called me with an effectual call.
A presence that frees from oppression.
Mercy that is ever new.
He stirs up a truth to move into my soul.
I am dead indeed,
having died I am alive to reign with my King.

It’s been almost 3 months! With much more to come…
Friends, I am so thankful for amazing grace. God is for sure a God of love.
I’m currently on pass for the weekend with my family. And I go back in 3 days.
God’s love is real. God’s love transforms. I’m still in a healing process. But my worst day with God is incomparable to my best day with out Him. I just want to lastly say, just surrender…that is the cry of my Abba to this people.

I’m so scared.

But im telling myself don’t be. I fly out in 3 hours. And I’ll be back in 6 months. Wonder who I’m gunna be.

"My thoughts are nothing like your thoughts,” says the LORD. “And my ways are far beyond anything you could imagine. For just as the heavens are higher than the earth, so my ways are higher than your ways and my thoughts higher than your thoughts."

- (Isaiah 55:8, 9 NLT)

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I am suppose to fly out on the 15th…

I took the drug screen and well I know it’s going to come up positive. 3 months long of preparation and getting accepted. Knowing I needed to be clean prior. BUT I’M JANE. AND STUFF IS STILL HAPPENING. I moved across freakin America. No friends. Nothing familiar. It’s been over a month. Constant family bullets being shot. Oh yeah also, my sister got pregnant and is choosing this ‘stranger over her family. Over me. And that hurts okay. It really hurts. But back to me because if I don’t let myself, let myself go. I’ll always love these selfish things. And live knowing, it’s love is a lie.
…all I can hope for (and try to faithfully pray, which I don’t feel I am doing) is understanding for them. From the guy above. I steered from my main sources but I guess my steering just overall sucks. 

It’s taken myself almost 4 years to do this.
and now I feel myself coming to the terms of now or never.  
 …though I know God has a plan for me. It has to be now.  

bigshotforonce:

they should have an app for finding pop punk kids in your local area

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"Don’t think that you’ve been gone too long to come to Him. God is not some spiritual parole officer waiting for you to fail. If you’ve strayed from prayer, He is not keeping some score. If you don’t feel Him at all, tell Him that: “I don’t feel you right now, God.” Pray with any amount of faith that you have; believe that prayer works; ask for faith if you have none. If you’re mad, tell Him. If you’re ashamed, guilty, confused, afraid, doubtful: tell Him. He can handle that. He is understanding, patient, gracious; He loves you. You’ll soon find you’ll want to talk to Him, because He’s actually pretty awesome to talk to."

- from this post, about prayer (via jspark3000)

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"It is not your job to change people, only to demonstrate what God is really like."

- Graham Cooke (via -bailee)

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"I hid my deepest feelings so well I forgot where I placed them."

- Amy Tan, Saving Fish from Drowning. (via namkeys)

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